Basically, its a follow up to Whose Line. So If you love Whose Line like I do, April 11th on the GSN at 8pm is the place to be! *and look its Charlie Sheen (back in January's taping of the show)

Because I'm procrastinating on studying and I love Jackie

I give up. I truly do. I come home with good intentions, or at least a tolerating one, but no more. Fuck that ho.  Bitch thinks just because she has a job that she can treat her family like shit. Just because she has a job and I don't that gives her a right to treat me like I'm beneath even talking to her. Just because she has a $10+ an hour job that she doesn't need to be a good human being.

You're so damn better than me huh?. You say you will wash the dishes. All except mine. Can't get your high class hands on my unemployed fork. 

Not just about me. You piss me the fuck off the way you treat our parents. My mom ask you when you're going out. You don't reply. My dad go gets your car fixed for hundreds of dollars. You snap at them for taking your car ( that they GAVE you) because you wanted to cruise with your friends. Then give a god dam answer! Your "grown up" act is bullshit. Grown ups don't reply because they are too busy and important now to communicate with others. 

You even bitch when you're asked second. Mom asked me would I like some BBQ pork for dinner. Then she asks you. Instead of saying "yes/no, thanks for asking" and appreciating her for wanting to buy you a dish, you say, "Finally you ask me. Why do you ask him first? You always ask him first. You spoil him." Fuck You. If there is anyone spoiled its your punkass. Spoiled because our parents bites their tongue everytime you speak to them condescendingly because you always threaten to leave and never see them again. (Which is the greatest gift you could EVER give me) But as parents, they can't let their precious daughter walk out on them. So you hold them hostage with your talk of not needing the family because of your $10+ job. Out of respect of my parents' wishes I don't say a word. They tell me not to say anything. To let you bitch and bitch to get your way. Do you understand how lightly this family treads to keep YOU happy? But no, you always have to find something to bitch at them say that our parents never loved her enough. God I hope you dont have kids, but if you do, you should know how painful that is for a parent to hear. You fucking hurt our parents everytime you utter those words. Mom has confided in me that she knows she wasnt the perfect parent but she tried. You made the strongest woman I know, put doubt and pain in her heart, because she knows she raised such an ungrateful, spoiled, lowlife scum like you.

And dont think just cuz you pay for lunch, that you're impressing anybody. You do that so that you can hold it over our heads. "Mom and Dad I can pay! Look at me I'm so adult! You, pay for tip!" Then you tell me to go fetch the food cuz I didnt pay. If it wasnt for our parents, I would spit the food out of my mouth, vomit all the went in my stomach, instead of ever having anything you bought. Its no wonder whenver you cook, the food taste like smug.

You wanted a router, I brought you a router. You wanted the pull-up bar, I brought it back from Davis just for you. But you..."wash your own dishes." Happy fucking holidays to you too. 

What do you think you're trying to do. When you don't call me by my name, but you, or him.  What do you think that proves. It proves your and adult? It proves that you're mature? You're not fooling anyone. You're throwing a tantrum everytime you open your mouth. You're pulling your family to the brink. Even mom is bitching about you. You have a shit temper, shit personality, your a shit human being. I'm gonna follow our sister's example. When your home, I won't be. 

*update*

imma just keep building

Another thing. You like to play sexism card that much huh? I can't sit in the front of the car with Dad, because thats two males in the front, yet, when it comes to things like yardwork, you can spout out that its the man's job to do that? Don't gimme your half baked women's rite shit. Thats just more bullshit that you throw at me. I can't sit in the front and operate the GPS for dad, because you find that to be our parents spoiling me, teaching me the wrong values, and then try to stick me in the "man's role". If you're too damn lazy to do any yardwork, just say so. Don't try fucking with our parents, making them believe you're some new age, highly educated, and so dam sophisticated about women's progressive movements. 

I went to my uncles wedding in Chinatown. Got a table with the cousins. Had a lager. Tapped the plates with the chopsticks. Listened to old asian karoeke. Same old, same old.

But for reals, you don't see some nephew nieces in 4+ years, and bam, they are going to high school and thinking about college. 

We waited at the curb while waiting for the car. There were girls in dresses. 2 cars (just noting they were both black guys), drove by slowly, each of them leaned out into the passenger seat and peered out the window, as to say, "how much?" Oh Oakland.

Spending time with the family on Thanksgiving...and my sister. Nothing but to put up a stone face, and enduring the week with her bullying and BS. Its always the same damn thing with her. I know she always picks at the most nonsensical bits to bitch at me, trying to get a rise out of me. Bitch, desperate to get a response from me, so she can put on her smug face and put me down, placing herself on a throne of gods. I am scum compared to her. Yaya... I get it. You're craving attention from me. I couldn't give a shit about what you think because you've never been a nuturing sister to me. Everything you done for me is so that you would make me feel indebted to you, to feel inferior to you. Nothing you do is out of love. That is why I ignore you. You're not a sister to me. Just because you were born one, doesn't give you the right to treat me this way, and expect complete subordination from me. 

When my parents argue over something, I don't get involved. My sister does. If I say anything, she says I don't know anything and should shut up. That I do not understand because I'm still a child, and should let the grown ups talk. Then later, my mom tells me I should mediate more. Take a side. Then what? So that my sister can bitch at me some more. So that she can have the pleasure to tell me that I'm insignificant. I get that too mom. My sister is such a bitch, the only way you know how to cope is to let her bitch and have her way. But really, do you have to give her more oppurtunities than she shoves herself into?

You may have bitched your way with our parents but not with me. When you tell me to do the dishes because you don't want to, I'll do it. When you tell me to go out in the rain to accompany our mother to Costco, because you don't want to, I'll do it.  I won't say a word to you. I'll just do it. You won't get me to complain, whine, accuse our parents of being unfair, spoiling you, not loving me. That is you. You won't get to me. Not like you used to. Calling me names, making me feel hideous, worthless. Because I have grown. I understand your ways. You won't get to me. I won't let you.

I went to one of those today. It was my aunt's cousin's 80 something birthday. So its a big deal. Lots of people. People that I do not know. My aunt married to my uncle who is my dad's brother. So I'm not blood related to any of these other people. Which made me confused. Attractive girls around my age there. But I think they might be 2nd or 3rd cousins that I just never met.  No blood relation so thats ok right? Not to mention now that I'm older, I wonder what is jailbait and what is not. They look young...mebee tooo young.

I just tried to down some wine. Bleh. Tasted pretty bad. Supposed to have been blackberries and other berries. My dad turned really red after one glass. I don't think I did.

Lot of old people trying to dress...sexy? Men in tight, see through shirts. Women in cleavage and leg baring dresses.

Saw white people and black person!

Just when I thought I have the family tree fiugred out, theres more that sprout up! I feel like since I'm older I should know the family relations better. LIke one day, I'mma have to do this stuff too. Or mebbe I'll just let my sister, or cousins handle it.

Must work on badminton smashes. Need better form, timing, and execution.

My 21st birthday has passed. Does that mean I'm all grown up? Hardly, but there are some changes I've noticed. I used to watch hella anime and read manga in high school. But then after senior year, I just stopped. I've been trying to get back into it, watching some shows here and there, and I realized...I'm getting too old for this. Almost all these characters are like jr high, high school kids. Back then, I could relate. Mebbe not relate, but put myself in those situations. But I'm old now. I ask myself..."why am I watching antics of high schoolers?" I'm just not engaged like I used to be. Sure was fun while it lasted :[.

80% off clothings at Kohls :D!

Oh Chinese restaurants. Saying family dinner plans is only 30 dollars. One soup, 4 dishes. They crossed out dessert on the menu. Grand Opening and they cheapening it up already. Then they ask, do you need rice? Of course they wouldnt include rice cuz everyone just eats dishes without it. That tacks on another 4 bucks. And the place is CASH ONLY.  Why are you so cheap Chinese people?